Welcome To The Darkside: Change Over
Toeplitz matric, Gradient Based Learning, a posteriori, Global Asymptotic Stability..I know what they are, however, I can’t neither solve their problems nor derive the mathematical logic behind it, and it frustrates me. After reading 8 chapters of Recurrent Neural Network for Prediction, I am still at lost. The knowledge I’ve gained is minimal. This is the reason why technical books are so aggravating as compared to other books like "50 Laws of Power" and "Art of Seduction". I need to get smarter as fast as possible. I WANT to get smarter.
How do you define yourself? Like Michael Jordan is synonymous with basketball. Or Mike Tyson is with boxing. As for me, I suck at most things, therefore, the only thing I’ve left is my technical knowledge. Furthermore, I am getting paid to be smart, how cool is that?
In my life so far, I have missed so many opportunities and the one that suffers the most is my love life. I do have friends of the opposite sex, however, I have never been in a relationship. My belief is that , in order to maximize the sweetness of your marriage, you must minimize your relationship durations. Besides,as a fellow Muslim, it is also to minimize your sins. Previous years, I was not ready for marriage. Now, I am still not ready, however, the desire to be in a relationship is insatiable as many opportunities have arise. What should I do? I’ll do the right thing this time. No longer shall I forsaken love in hopes of fulfilling my dreams. The question is: will love forsaken me, like it did before? My answer is: does it matter? Damn, am I losing the Darkside mojo?
