Emo?
I had a dream of you yesterday. It’s been a while since that happened. The last time it occurred was during the "Dark Ages", the pedantic age I would call it. How are you? I guess you’re fine, judging from the huge smile that you have on your face. Or maybe you’re not, and that smile is just a facade to hide all of the the pain and suffering you have endured throughout your life. Who knows, right? Especially not me.
You have always loved to play mind games with me. You get into my head, then wrecked all my senses apart. You have always keep me guessing.."What If?". I can’t blame you for that as part of it, is my fault. You’re warm to me then the next minute you’re cold, instability..perhaps, but I don’t blame you for that. It’s my fault, because I was not courageous enough to confront you.
If I were given a chance to go through it again, I wouldn’t make any amendments. I would let it end the same way as it was, even though, I am feeling a pinch of regret in me. Some things are just not meant to be, right? As this is one of those "things". To say that I am truly in love with you is an overstatement. I was confused back then. Uttering those 3 words to you, was just shallow of me. Even though I knew your reactions to my confession, yet, I still did it anyway. Huh, me and my esoteric thoughts. I have never ever considered your happiness. To me, I wouldn’t want you to be happy, unless, it is with me. It’s my fault. I was too selfish.
I’ll do the right thing, this time around. I won’t be selfish anymore. I will be courageous. Be happy with him. And I shall be happy for you. Goodbye and have a pleasant life. Have a happy life knowing that I won’t be waiting for you any longer.
…..Man, Ninja Gaiden 2 is X360 exclusive. Looks like I might get a X360 after all. What am I waiting for then? X360 is only RM1200 and there are pirated games everywhere. Well… :p
