Welcome To The Darkside

   So many things to keep track of, feels like suffocating. I thought that after my graduation, I am liberated, free as a bird they say, but little did I know that this pile of mess awaits me. I know that life awaits me at the end of the road, but I have never thought that it would be this messed up. I wish I could take a break from it all, the anxiety, the pain, but I can’t, because life goes on .

   The only time that you can take a break is when you are dead. I’ve died once, and it won’t happen again. It’s been 3 years 6 months since I died, yet no one realizes anything. Such a shame actually, the world hardly know Che Ahmad Bukhari. Such a nice young man, straight as a ruler. Yet, the world has taken advantage over him and finally he is broken. Despite his valiant effort to stay alive, the society has made his attempts futile. No matter how much I miss him, he won’t be able to come back. You shall be missed, my good friend. And don’t worry about life, I got your back. Always.

   Lets say you are on your way to the path of greatness. You’ve been traveling this path for almost a decade. And, the prize, the goal, is just barely in your grasp. Suddenly, another path to even greater greatness exists along the way. If you would have taken your original path, these other path will disappear, and will only resurface again in a couple of years. However, if you were to choose this new path, the chances of failing is greater, hence you’ll be more at risk. Furthermore, the original path will disappear, leaving you at right where you started if you fail. It’s a risk versus greatness trade off.Which  one shall you choose? Which one I chose? Hmm..until this very day, to tell you the truth, I am still contemplating between my choices. Insyallah, the path that I have chosen is the most optimum path for me.

   Enough with choices, goals and life. Today, I shall present to you, my top 5 anime(complete) series that I have seen.

5. SUZUKA
   Suzuka is a love story, a very highly complicated intertwining love story that is, between 2 athletes. It contains A LOT of romantic scenes, my favorite being the "Firefly" Confession scene. Dude, that scene permeates my soul. For all you Boys Be fans, you’ll love this. By the way, seeing this anime doesn’t reduce you to "mat jiwang"..nope nope..I disagree..:p

4. TRIGUN
   "To save the butterfly, you must kill the spider."

Dude, that line is still awesome, even though after 5 years. That use to be my sig. Anyway, Trigun is an action/comedy anime which follows the trials and tribulations of Vasheee The Stampeeedoo…he is like Himura Kenshin, vow not to kill but totally skilled at killing and also a bit of a goof off. Unlike Kenshin, Vash uses a gun and has family issues. Huh, there was a time in my life when I thought yellow tinted sunglasses was cool, all thanks to Trigun. If you like Rurouni Kenshin, you’ll love Trigun.

3. HONEY AND CLOVER
   Honey and Clover ran for 2 seasons(Animax only shows Season 1), and the storyline was just amazing. Every character they introduced, will have their own back story. All in all, it’s a huge intertwining story. Many have categorized this anime as a "Slice of Life" genre, whatever that means. My favorite character out of the bunch is Morita Shinobu. Wacky, crazy, genius, lazy, talented…man that guy is just cool. The only thing that disappoints me is the ending(2nd season). Oh yah, the part with the little girl and flying glasses is just disturbing. They are trying to mix J-Pop with snuff..ewwhh.

2. RUROUNI KENSHIN OVA 1
   The anime sucks, because after fighting Shishio, it went downhill from there. If only the anime would have followed the manga… The 2nd OVA, showing Kenshin growing old and having some sort of STD(TB? I don’t know.) and died due to do that has ruined my perspective of the Battousai. It is just sad to see it happened to Kenshin. The best Rurouni Kenshin series is the 1st OVA which consists of 4 episodes. This OVA shows Kenshin when he was a Battousai and how did the scar on his face occurred. Full of violence, realistic fight scenes..and of course, a love story to boot. I’ve seen this OVA 5 years ago, and it is still one of the best anime that I’ve seen, nuff said.

1.DEATH NOTE
 "Watashiwa L des.."

   The best anime I’ve seen. Yagami Light, L, M, N..most of the characters are just pure cool-age. The pure awesomeness of this anime is indescribable through my limited range of vocabulary. It is just that good. A must watch. Oh yah, L dies by the way(unlike the Death Note movies) and the death scene is orchestrated beautifully and symbolically . Epitome of awesomeness indeed. Period.

There are two kinds of people in this life:

Those who walk into a room and say,

"Well, here I am!"

And those who walk in and say,

"Ahh, there you are."

-Leil Lowndes-

I had a dream of you yesterday. It’s been a while since that happened. The last time it occurred was  during the "Dark Ages", the pedantic age I would call it. How are you? I guess you’re fine, judging from the huge smile that you have on your face. Or maybe you’re not, and that smile is just a facade to hide all of the the pain and suffering you have endured throughout your life. Who knows, right? Especially not me.

   I’ll do the right thing, this time around. I won’t be selfish anymore. I will be courageous. Be happy with him. And I shall be happy for you. Goodbye and have a pleasant life. Have a happy life knowing that I won’t be waiting for you any longer.

…..Man, Ninja Gaiden 2 is X360 exclusive. Looks like I might get  a X360 after all. What am I waiting for then? X360 is only RM1200 and there are pirated games everywhere.  Well…  :p

  The fate of my future lies in a balance. It  will be in a balance until…the meeting  minutes is out. Ughh..

  Woo..fasting month will be here  soon. Can’t wait for its awesomeness. Although  it will impede on me achieving my "objectives", I will be able to score big time.(religion wise of course, what are you thinking?). I’ll get an A this Ramadhan, yes sir, I will.

   I wonder sometimes, why am I in a constant state of pain. I mean, why do I always feel inadequate? Why always the person I like(love?) likes(loves?) someone else? Is it the world’s fault or is it mine? Why am I always put in this situation? Why does it feel as if my heart been ripped out from my chest every time I see the person I used to like(still likes..btw) be with someone else? Why is it I can stop thinking about her? Why would she like someone else? Why won’t she like me?Why why, constant whining at its epitome state. So many questions..that deserves answers, or at least a cure. Finally, after years of searching, I’ve found the solution. The solution is..PERSONA 3. 

   What the hell am I talking about? Well, after playing Persona 3, I have truly achieved Nirvana. My life’s getting better. Even  my heart that’s been constantly ripped out is missing, hence making the act of ripping feels less painful. With killer soundtracks and a sim(aka Genguro Girl at Newgrounds) approach, it is certainly a refreshing new take on the tired old RPG formula. Since Persona 3 came into my life, I’ve never looked back since. Persona 3 is not gruesomely tough like her sister, Nocturne. Nocturne was a tough nut to crack else Persona 3 is an easy score(ka-chiing!). Persona 3, you are just soul soothing , you are awesome and all, but sorry, I can’t be in a committed relationship.  My heart will forever be with the Final Fantasy series. (Sephiroth!). One Winged Angel baby!

   2 posts in a row? Am I on a roll? Am I going to promise to update my blog frequently? Naa.. I just felt like writing, you know. Therefore, I wouldn’t be making any promises as this is just a coincidence.

   A few years ago, I have so many problems in life( current problems count: 0, yeah right) and I have no one to pour my heart and soul to, so, I started writing. What did I write about? Anything, everything..short stories, assignment,reports, poems..as I said before, anything. Besides doing Maths,reciting the Holy Quran, reading books,(lots of stuff, eh?) writing soothes my broken soul. I can’t describe it, it just gives me satisfaction.

   I’ve messed up bad in the past. I didn’t do things that I should have done and I did things that I shouldn’t have, and there is no way for me to fix it. Even with all the knowledge of statistical average, (AR,MA,ARMA), there is no way that I can average my mistakes to a lower percentage. At first, it frustrates me, but later on, I began accepting them, and try my best not to repeat them in the future.  Man, do I sound depressing?

Today, as I was eating lunch, I saw a man dropped his fork. And I thought to myself, life’s like that you know, you just never know when are you going to fall. Once you fell, you need someone to help you up again. Life’s like that.( Melancholy music playing in background)

Hahaha..I couldn’t believe you guys managed to read through the entire above paragraph because I can’t.  It’s so..crappy. Just messing with you guys.  I pwned you guys good, eh?

   Studies have shown that by visiting my blog, your intelligent level will fall drastically. True story, study has been proven in IEEE December 2008 issue. :p

Assalamualaikum,

  It’s been a while since I’ve sat foot in the blogging domain. I know, I know, my promises to update frequently is void, blatant and should be dismissed. Can’t really use my busy-ness as an excuse, because, well, I believe that there is time for everything. Therefore, let’s just say that other activities take precedence over blogging.

  A lot has happened in the past few months. Dreams were shattered, hopes are given, knots are tied , lost friendships are mended and of course, the infamous, hearts are broken. But I shall not go into all that, because, stating too much about your work is a career suicide, blogging too much about your social life is a relationship suicide and discussing too much about politics might make me end up having tribulations with the ISA. About latest news? Bah, you can get that from newspapers, e-papers.. My thoughts on latest issues? Nahh, I’ll save that up for  Kopitiam sessions. So, what is there left for me to blog? Hmm…

  Not much really. Love? Done that. Tortured Butterflies? Not in the mood. Well, looks like I have absolutely nothing to blog about and yet I’ve written 3 paragraphs. You can call me a natural born writer huh?