My life been spiralling out of control lately, can’t really tell on what’s going on. Day in day out, just chillin’, no work, nothing, just like a stupor. 3 months of rest caused me to be restless. I’ve never taken a break this long before. I want to get back to studying, but i have to wait. The earliest that i can start is this January. Sounds easy huh, however, there are a few roadblocks that i need to overcome.
1) Scholarship
To study in Cambridge cost around 25,000 pound a year, and that is just the tuition fee. The living expenses in UK is high, and therefore, my only option is to get a scholarship. I’ve applied for 2 scholarships recently(Agong and TPM), and i haven’t heard from them yet. Insyallah, i hope that i can get a place at least for one of them.
2) University
I haven’t send the application to the university itself. This is because in order for me to go for the January intake, i need to send the application after October. Not getting a place really creates an anxiety in me. However, i can only pray and live it to God to decide what’s best for me.
3) Work
Sent my CV to UiTM last week. I thought of killing sometime waiting to further studies, therefore, i’ve decided to become a tutor at UiTM. Looks like PS2 and XBox have finally dissapoint me at last. I am freaking bored, and i wish to be involve in a constuctive activity. Besides, not only does becoming a tutor increases my chance of getting selected for TPM, i can also scout around the visinity, looking for my future wife.Ohhh, right..two birds with one stone..:)
4) Gym
Haven’t been going to the gym lately, got myself into an injury. I stepped on some broken glass, and well, i can’t really walk well , maybe for the next 1 week. What luck, just when i was on my way on having a body like Arnold Governator(pls note:sarcasm)
5) Love Life
I don’t say this much, but i have a lousy love life in the past. In fact, it is so bad, almost non-existent actually, that i tried denying love exists within me. I believe that this feeling of "love" is void within me. I believe that i was meant to suffer of being "loveless" for my whole entire pathethic life. But, seeing that one of my good friend is getting married(you know who you are), i suddenly was hit by reality, i became insecure, i feel that i am getting older and i need to find myself a wife, or at least be in a constructive relationship. Anyway, to my "friend", i am absolutely happy for you and i wish you the best on embarking a whole new journey.Btw, i am your pengapit , right? 
To my other friend, i had a good time hanging out with you the other day. It’s been so long since we chill, and i’ve realized that we might not be as close as we were last time, but to me, you will always be that kid that came to my house on a skateboard and who is a freaking excellent gamer. I know that you probably are going through a rough time right now, but you always have me as a friend, aight?
To Rock, when are you coming back to Malaysia man?
