Welcome To The Darkside

Yes, finally, an update to my pathethic scribble of thoughts that i call it "blog", not that anyone cared what i have to say anyway. If i knew no one cared, then why do i persist? Self satisfaction of course and of course it feels good ranting about frivolous matters…
Sometimes, you might feel an unnecessary pressure because you desperate. Desperate because you want the thing so badly, as if nothing else matters to you at that particular moment. To "those" that i’ve hurt…erm..confused…in the past, my apologies.I was just confuse and desperate during the time i met YOU. Sorry for acting  all weird and stuff. It’s just that i wanted YOU so badly in my life at that time. I wasn’t thinking about anything else, neither the past nor the future.I was thinking and feeling only in that MOMENT. I would have gone to the depths of hell and return just so that you would love me back. After the convulsion i suffered(Overly-dramatic!), i had a revelation. The revelation is that you were not meant for me and i wasn’t meant for you. In other words, it’s fated. (Huh, that’s the so called REVELATION? And you need to sit down and think for a few days to come out with that? Man, i could think of your REVELATION while taking a crap.)
I hate people..used to, actually. I just felt so odd being around them and i used to think friendship is a hindrance to me in obtaining my goals. I took people for granted. But when i was diagnosed with a denggue fever last year, and was lying in the hospital gasping for air while blood spurs out through my sweat gland(Overly-dramatic!) while the only thought that ran through my mind was to recover as fast as possible and start studying for Advance Electromagnetic so that i can score an A, i thought, for sure that no one will come and visit me, but i was wrong. Bunch of my friends showed up. Azarul, Joe and Kalil , i never had a chance to say these but thanks a lot for coming man, the tuna sandwich that you guys brought tasted perfect at that time.
Shukri, Amir,Rauf, Pejal, Feisal, Ammar and Imin,(I am not forgetting anyone, right?) thanks a lot for coming guys. I really am touched by your visit. Starting from that day onwards, i have started to value friendship. I am lucky to have you guys as friends.
Some of you might ask, why the sudden outburst of personal experiences? Why the long period of absentee?And why do i contradict my statements with the statements in the bracket?(Huh, are you referring to me?) Well, it’s because…..

"The Sun. It can only be appreciated by it’s absence. The longer the days of rain, the more the sun is craved. But too many hot days and the sun overwhelms."